Truth be told I really don't know the answer to that question, I just know it was ages ago! And I have no valid excuse, unless you count my most recent obsession as an excuse?!?
And that recent obsession would be . . . ? Downloading apps like crazy for iPhone and iPad after my discovery of Appadvice and its more recent spinoff Apps Gone Free. And the subsequent discovery of a couple of other similar veined apps.
My iPhone is approaching full capacity and my iPad isn't far behind it. And I am discovering what a lot of crap there really is on the app store.
However the whole hunter/gatherer thing (that is threatening to make me the subject of an episode of Hoarders) is being satisfied by cluttering up my iOS devices instead of my house. And seeing as how my "purchases" are generally free, or debited from my iTunes credit if I splash out, it's a whole lot easier on the bank account than my usual shopaholic tendencies.
It does involve rather a lot of time though, hence my lack of blog posts of late. Well, that and the lack of anything to moan about ;-) Yes, I have noticed the distinct whiny flavour my blog seems to have taken on. I'm going to blame that on my recent bout of depression and leave it at that. My meds have been increased and the increase seems to have taken effect so I'm in a slightly more positive frame of mind, and the bonus side effect of the increased dosage is a lack of migraines!
I'd really love to know what is causing the depression. I've never been a super positive type, but I generally have a reasonable disposition. And the tricky thing was, I didn't know I was depressed the first time around. Then when it hit me again I didn't recognise it the second time either. I know now though that when my migraines start to come back with any regularity, it's time to check the dosage again.
I'm hoping now that we've got the dosage right though. It's so good to have my sense of humour back. And to feel anything instead of being an emotional void (with the exception of my ever present anger & irritation that just wouldn't quit) is such a joy! And to get along with my long-suffering husband again. The poor bugger, I don't know why he stuck around, I was horrible!
Oh, and FUN!! Have you ever rediscovered fun? It's so . . . well, fun. Well - what else can you call it? I feel a bit like a kid again. Only difference is the recovery time when I do something silly and damage myself. If only I could bounce off the pavement as easily at 40 as I did at 4. Now it hurts more and for longer, also the potential to cause real damage is stronger.
Now if only they had medication for willpower! I'd be eating right, a non-smoker, 10kg lighter and super fit. I really believe there's a potential market there - who needs the diet industry if you've cornered the market on willpower? If anyone's testing products for willpower please let me know. I'd be a willing guinea pig :-)
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