Epiphany!

Aren't showers fantastic things? I often wonder how on earth inventors, artists, prophets and all of the other types of visionaries came up with anything at all prior to the invention of the shower? It always seems to be the place where I come up with inspiration, revelations and epiphanies.

So today's epiphany was to do with strength, almost a kick in the butt to say "Pull your head in - you're not the only one with problems and yours are far less than a lot of people's." A sharp reminder that MS is not the end of the world, and that it's time to stop being so self-pitying, self-indulgent, self-destructive, selfish and all those other "self" words, and get on with life!

It's about 14 months since I started going numb which lead me down the MS path, and I've been vacillating between varying emotions ever since, none of them at all constructive. I dare say the depression was a reasonably large contributor to the ongoing self-absorption (oooh look, another "self" word), but the meds have kicked in, and I'm a whole lot better mentally so it's jolly well time to pull myself up by the bootstraps and take control of my life again.

I think this has been coming on for a few days, yesterday's blog update was a by-product it would seem. But recently I've been wondering where my determination, willpower and strength has gone and how I can tap back into them. Maybe that was a part of the process because I think I found them in the shower today! Who knew they were hiding in there this whole time?!?! They could've jumped out and hit me a bit earlier in the piece!

I've been gradually remembering that I'm strong dammit! And I can bloody well do anything I put my mind to! And this MS bollocks better sit up and take notice, because it's had the upper hand for way too long. I'm back, and I'm in control here - not some poxy disease (well, not poxy exactly but you get my drift) that thinks it can take my spirit as well as the bits of my body it's laid claim to. I'll concede the bits of my body that it already has, but I'll be damned if it's gonna get any more.

Wow, the first blog post that I feel really good reading over! I'm liking this fighting talk! And on that note I bid you adieu!